5 more tests

Only five more tests to go.  Hopefully I can make it because I am totally in coast mode at this point.  There is nothing that I want more than to just be done with classes.  Now that I am this close to being done however it is a little scary.  I know that you learn a lot in rotation but I don't feel like I really know enough to go on rotation.  Surely this is not the case because I have done fine in school up until this point but it is still a little bit nerve racking.  My only goal in pharmacy school was to not fail any exams and so far so good.  Just five more... I can do it!

Seminar is almost over!

Less than 24 hours now until seminar is over!  Never before in my life have I worked so hard on something for school.  It is going to be a great relief to get this off my shoulders, both literally and figuratively (I have been carying a huge folder in my backpack).  Even with all of my preperation and work I am still scared to death to give this presentation tomorrow.  It is not that I do not know my topic, or that I am worried about failing, it is just nerve racking to be giving my first real lecture/presentation.  There have been rumors of somone taking a beta blocker before giving their seminar to help with the nerves, unfortunately for them they ended up passing out.  Another idea is that of a couple of my other friends who plan on taking a shot or two before getting up there to talk, which like the beta blockers sounds like a great idea but I just don't think I can do it.  Well at least it can be said with relative certainty that I will not fail and tomorrow there will be a huge stress removed from my life.

My seminar

As a part of my program in pharmacy school I have to do two seminars.  My first one will be on February 11 of this year and is titled "Levetiracetam use for seizure prophylaxis in traumatic brain injury."  The process of doing a seminar is to present on the disease state of condition, analyze two studies that look at your treatment, and come up with conclusions.  It is a very long process in which I have been able to put my procrastination skills to the test.  The original plan was to have everything pretty much completed by the time the semester started in January.  This did not happen (surprise surprise).  Anyway I have conducted much of the research and am now just trying to put it all together, hopefully it will come out alright and on time.  The plan is to have it done by next Wednesday to do a practice run.  I am so ready for school to be over already... It has only been one week.

Resolutions.

New Years resolutions are so cliche.  Last year was the first year in quite a few that I even made any.  I made two last year, to get in shape and to be more direct with people about my opinions, feelings, wishes, etc..  For someone who does not want to make New Years resolutions because they are cliche my first one was the most cliche one of all.  The reason for picking that was because I had gained a lot of weight during the previous year and was having chest pains.  I felt it important for my health to get in better shape.  The second resolution I made was because I have a big problem telling people what I want or even talking to people in general.  Well I was quite successful for the most part until the beginning of this last semester when I put on all the weight I had lost.  I managed to be more forward with people (but still lost a girl I was dating because of my inability to talk about anything personal).  So this year I have decided to make resolutions again.  But rather than make different ones I have decided to continue with the same resolutions as last year.  I realized that somethings just take longer than a year, I know I can succeed because I did get in shape (just relapsed)  and I have made progress in my conversational skills I am just not all the way yet.  The new year has given me an excuse to refocus and think about the reasons that I failed before so hopefully I will do better this next year.

December is great.

I like December.  It is so nice to have a break from school, get some snowboarding in, eat good food.  Speaking of the whole snowboarding thing, today I went riding at Snowbird.  It was the second time I have been riding since our family friend died in a freak avalanche in bounds at the resort.  I will save that story until I have some more time to think about it.  Back to today...  Oh man I felt lucky to be able to move my limbs today.  After jumping over a natural roller I landed a little forward and sunk my nose into the snow.  The next part seemed to all come in slow motion.  I fell on to my face and bounced off it doing a somersault.  I heard my spine crack all the way up, I thought for sure I was done for.  The body is quite resilient and can take a lot of punishment I know but still it is important to be able to realize when you are lucky and not take it for granted.  Hopefully I will be going up again tomorrow, if I can move that is...

First day of the season.

Today was my first day up for the season.  It was a crappy day of snowboarding but it was still nice to get out.  I ride at Snowbird in Utah.  The snow (ice) was not great and there was only one lift open.  It doesn't matter though, I was just happy to finally get out.  We only took 5 runs because of the conditions and because the last thing I wanted to do was catch an edge on the ice and be injured the first day of the season.  Hopefully we will have another great season this year.  Unfortunately my best friend Cassi who has a sixth sense about what a season is going to be like is just not feeling it.  Well maybe she will be wrong this year.  I was finally able to scratch that itch I have had since July...

Its November

Well its November and I have not posted yet so this will be truly random.  You see, rather than study like I should be doing right now because I have two tests coming up this week I would rather be posting about nothing.  It probably would not be so bad had I not been procrastinating for the last 2 weeks.  I have been playing the new video games that I bought.  Fable II and Fallout 3.  They are both great.  Tons of nerd hating out there on the Fable II and while their complaints may be valid I just don't get why people cannot just like the games the way they are.  It is still fun and problems like those talked about can be fixed in patches. 

Anyway, enough about my lazy nerdiness.  It has finally started to get cold and last weekend into the beginning of this week it snowed nonstop up in the mountains.  Snowbird opened yesterday and I really wanted to go up.  Screw school.  So I decided to put my goals for the month up here so that I can look back and say wow, I am awesome cause I accomplished something.  Or perhaps I will just hate myself because I never accomplish anything.  

1. Do NOT fail any tests.

2. Clean my house, especially my office.

3. Get new motherboard for desktop.

4. Not miss any shifts at work.

5. Go to the gym or some other form of exercise 3 times per week.

6. Not play video games when I have more important things to do.

Well good luck me.